watching my past grow smaller
and I’m starting to think I
have an unhealthy relationship w/
my knees—undone
@21 hearing you from a
different place:
tell me why the sea sounds like
a shhh and everything’s slow and
I can’t look at myself in the mirror
anymore

bc my head’s been foggy since like 4th of July—messy white water slick with oil

controlled burning (a holistic lobotomy) but instead everything's screaming while I'm trying to remember your forgotten memories

"You just never know, you know?"

it's doing wonders
for my self-esteem

"You just never know, you know?"

"You just never know, you know?"

watching my p
and I’m starti
have an unhealt
my knees—undone
@21 hearing you
different place:
tell me why th
a shhh

and it’s getting late now



and my lips are permanently stained
in a pink you’d wear to the bank
lugging around a case of the empties
a question of time and what to do when
my brain feels like dipping mustard or when
I accidentally based my entire personality
off Twin Peaks at the start of quarantine

but I wish I could go back to a time before now when April didn’t feel like gloom and downward dog didn’t feel like a punishment

Do you think the park ranger that vaccinated me still thinks about
me??

Do you think the park ranger that vaccinated me still thinks about
me??

meanwhile I realized I’ve never flown
a kite before so I hope that explains
enough bc I’m sick of these un-
memories—growing backwards on the fault
line I see myself at the end
of the hallway: narrow vision of
grace waving back at me





it's like the retrieval of some almost
forgotten state—call it women's
intuition but I just wanna know you'll
hear the bell if I ring it bc I
feel it in my hollow bones—
morning ribs when I’m
all alone

(call it out of dimension)

Do you know how long 2 minutes is in girl time?

Do you know how long 2 minutes is in girl time?

sometimes I wonder if I’m so fucked
up bc my brother and sister taught me
the wrong animal noises as a child or
bc my old PE teachers are boning—

and my stomach feels like so much upside down bc I just realized hello kitty has no mouth

one numb toe and I think I must be dying
or I’m just another hypochondriac asking

and I start to think I must be allergic to
the stillness









the containment of a year

and I realize the most exciting thing
I’ve seen in 13 months is a nun
walking a dog in front of Subway

are you mad
at me???

are you mad
at me???

time unseen
time that has an emptiness

empty time

misreading of time

not dead time

the
sound will never stop

"And can I just be vulnerable for a second?"

the
sound will never stop

tiny feelings of Abby Romine

(my octopus teacher)

"And can I just be vulnerable for a second?"

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